News about our Nana....
Nana's health deteriorated fast, unbeknownst to us. At first the doctor's said she will be around for at least 5 years and if she was lucky then she might even make it to 10 years. Then they changed their opinion and said she had 6 months - 1 year. Then they changed their mind again and said she only had a week or two left with us. We saw her the Saturday before she passed away (October 11th) and she seemed to be doing pretty good.. However, on Friday October 17th, Aaron, me, Mandi, and Chris stayed the night at Nana's and Papa's house because hospice said she was fading quickly. Our girls stayed at Mandi and Chris's house with Chris's parents and sisters. She passed away on Saturday October 18th at 1:15am with the 4 of us (and Phil) by her side.
We all got to say our goodbyes, which I am sooooo thankful for. I loved and still love her SO much. It was so hard to see her breathing slow down and to see her take her final breath. However, I am soooo thankful for being there when she passed. I am glad I could be there for her final moments on earth and her final moments with us. She loved her family so much, and we loved her so much. She always put family first. You could call on her anytime, day or night. whenever you needed. She truly was an angel on earth. I could have never asked for a better mother-in-law. She was the best.
Phil had Aaron and Mandi plan most of the funeral. I tagged along when I could. We had to make arrangements with the funeral home, pick out a casket, a headstone, floral arrangements, and write an obituary. It was the hardest thing I have ever been thru. I have never been this close to anyone that has passed on. She was a Mother to me. Always treated me with love and kindness from day 1. It has been so hard to see her health decline. The girls loved her soooo much (I did too of course), but it is so hard to talk about death to the girls with someone they were so close to. I think Emma and Livi realize that Nana is gone from this earth forever, but I don't think Abby does. I know they are upset, but I don't think they know how to cope. I have told them that it is OK to cry, but we have to remember all the fun times and happy memories we have of Nana.
I miss her sooo much. It has been so hard to visit Papa the last couple days and go into their house and not see Nana. I walk in and expect to see her walking down the hall, standing in the kitchen, or sitting on the couch. It's not the same without her, nor will it ever be. There's a huge hole in my heart. People who have lost loved ones have told me it will get easier with time, BUT I just don't see how. The only thing that makes me feel better is thinking that the reason she HAD to leave us was because her grandson Joshua needed her up there in Heaven with him. I HAVE to believe that, otherwise I get upset knowing she has 5 other grandchildren down here on earth that needed her too. Her funeral was beautiful. It was a beautiful sunny day, and no need of a coat. That's the type of weather she would be working in her garden in, which she loved to do. She would've loved today's weather. She looked so beautiful, but she always did. I will always love her and miss her and think about her every day.
1 comments:
I am so sorry for your loss and have continued to pray for you all. She was always so beautiful, I may have not known her much but I know she was a great mother in law to you and she cares so much about her grandchildren. Her time was probably so soon because maybe she did have to take care of Joshua, God has plans and it can be hard sometimes where you question it but there is a reason and that may have been just the reason. Stay strong for Aaron and the girls, love you guys so much! <3
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